What’s that mean?

WOW! Since Thanksgiving, I’ve had quite a ride emotionally. I can’t help but call this time since I returned in mid-Nov. “sweet”…like a treasured giddy excitement waiting behind a curtain of hopes for what is to come. My heart is so content to be where I am, but my body has hit an exhaustion that gives me little room to push beyond it. Friends have spoiled me with understanding and grace as they watch me struggle to learn how to stop for a day maybe two…how much longer can I take of resting? 🙂 Ha! Can I just say, God has been waking me up early, no matter the time that I go to bed? I awake wide-eyed like a child wanting to go out and see their stocking hung and to open the presents under the tree…but all I want is to read His Word and talk with Him. Even journaling has taken a back seat. Praise HIM…for desire for Him comes as a gift for us all – I believe we can recieve the gift after we begin to seek after Him with our hearts.

To say that this year has been unexpected and full would be an understatement. I have definately had years where I’ve been away more, but in regards to overall “fullness” of a year…this one has been packed: personal change and extreme growth, rooting at “home” all over again, extreme experiences, tours, decisions, watching God move in power to bring people along in the ministry, heart tenderizing and refreshing, hunger and therefore discipline strength, and travel! One thing that has not grown has been my blogging consistency! 🙂

Last night we had a Christmas party at the house…It was everything beyond what a movie can allow you to experience…the prayer where everyone focuses on Jesus and makes a commitment to continue the journey, the warmth of love, the taste of food, the smell of nothing burnt, the sound of laughter and deep conversation and even carols being sung by a seeming choir (we are in Nashville folks)…it was precious, homey, and memorable for sure. Money tight, I began to go around the house looking for things I could create Christmas decor around…It was as if I found the most randomly placed decorations everywhere I looked. I spent a total of $17 and the house and yard seemed to envelope us all with the crisp freshness and warmth of the season! Well, at least I enjoyed it! I’m so thankful – no decoration is a need, so I was delighted to be surrounded by wants fulfilled! 🙂